~~ ReincarnatioN ~~

Weekends mmgu nie, ewan spend mase kat umah nenek sedara ewan kat dato keramat..duk tgok2 kn die coz die dah tak sihat sgt...ewan sgt close ngan die since i was baby....she took care of me n slalu myanyi lagu/zikir tyme nk buai2 ewan dulu..(i miss my kg...huaaaa)..

lately, ewan byk spend mase kat sane...dah jarang stay umah kat s.alam lak...(hope my dearest housemates pham hal nie).....smbil2 duk wat bubur nasi, ewan duk hafal fact of cases dlm subjek Company Law II.....byk seh nk kne hafal...mati la...then, kene refer kat 2 BUAH KITAB AGUNG NIE....pening dowh!!!!!

last Saturday, ewan dpt tau berita yg agak ngejutkn ewan...tp brite ni gak ade la sumting yg ewan dah expect akan berlaku soon or later...just its all about time....mmg hancur ati, sedih giler n to be honest, ewan raser ati ewan nie cam dicarik2 ngan pisau RAMBOO.....its so n so killing me!!

FYI, ewan penah ckp yg ewan tak snggup nk TAHU, DENGAR & TENGOK prkare nie berlaku..A
mmg sumpah ewan tak sanggup...tp ape nk buat, HIDUP & TAKDIR TAK SLALU MENYEBELAHI KITER......I HAVE TO ACCEPT IT OPENLY EVEN ITS HURTING MY HEART & FEELING ALOT N ONLY GOD KNOWS!!!

Ape yg ewan harap kn just 1 = THE HAPPINESS FOR A PERSON THAT I REALLY, DEEPLY & MADLY LOVE.......PERSON WHO IS MY EVERYTHING, WHO IS MY BLOOD, WHO IS MY LIFE & MY SOUL......... Even sumer nie make me suffer like HELL n killing me, but its ok...ewan tak kisah semua nie..asalkn SEMUA NIE MAMPU BUAT SI DIE HAPPY & BHGIA...... hapines si die tu dah ckup utk ewan.....ckup utk buat ewan bernafas n berjalan....#$%^&&**#@%

Ramai org nk tau ape yg sebenarnye yg terjadi pd ewan...ape yg ewan dah wat b4....
ape yg ewan leh ckp = thanks coz bace blog ewan.....ewan just nk express the way i feel inside...
i just nk share pengalaman ewan yg tak seberapa nie ngan bloggers....so that we can be a BETTER HUMAN FOR OUR OWN FUTURE!!!!!

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Orang kate, ewan bodoh...ewan nire giler n out of my mind...mcm2 lagi diorang nie ckp....
yg pling lekat kat mulut diorang = s.t.u.p.i.d!! ... since 20 nov 2008, tu la ayat yg diorang duk belasah ewan ari2...

words2 nie bukn je kuar dr kwn2 yg tau sikit2 psal ape yg berlaku, tp words nie pon turut kuar dr mulut my best frenz...sedih, terluka, sakit....semua ade..semua nye ewan raser..
bile duk sorang2, pikir balik ape yg dah berlaku, pikir balik ape yg ewan dah wat, tetibe ewan terpikir = menyesal ke aku wat smua nie?? ape yg aku dpt skrng ??

along dah mrah ewan kaw-kaw baru nie...die marah n maki ewan coz bagi die, ewan wat keptusan n bende yg bodoh n tak masuk akal....macm budak skolah rendah....sebab ewan dah rosak kn mase depan ewan...

"kamu tak patut jd adik along dan kamu spatut nye jd anak org lain, bukan anak Noraya!!"
nie la kate2 along before ewan naik bus balik ke s.alam baru2 nie.... sedih??? SAPE YG TAK SEDIH KN??

tp, utk sekian kali nye, EWAN TAK PENAH MEYESAL ATAS APE YG EWAN DAH BUAT...EWAN TAK PENAH MEYESAL ATAS SETIAP KEPTUSAN YG EWAN AMBIK...

Biar pon org lain nk kate ape2 skali pon, kate la...diorang semua leh kutuk n maki ewan ape saje yg diorang nk... ewan tak myesal coz ewan tau ape yg ewan buat.. ewan tau knape ewan buat semua tu..ewan sedar ape kesan yg ewan akan tanggung.....sebab tu ewan brani wat keptusan tu...

THE ONLY REASON TO ALL THIS IS ....... I DO IT FOR MY LOVE, FOR SUMBODY THAT I REALLY LOVE MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF !!!!!

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nie skrng baru balik kelas...kelas International law, Trade & finance (ITF)..erm..cam biase la, Pn Azlina wat gelak2 dlm kelas n mgajar kitorang cam ner nak jadi stabil if kene langgar ngan bullet train kat taiwan...wakakaka..laju giler die mgajar!!!!

Ewan ader duk visit blog2 tetibe bace 1 entry kat blog RALPH... entry tu pasal dilemma Ralph..
so, today ewan raser cam nk kongsi pasal my dilemma lak..

ader 1 decision yg blom ewan decide lagi...org2 tertentu n yg terlibat dah bising2 kat ewan n asyik pujuk ewan utk say YES...mmg la, dlm ati nie, honestly, nk jer say YES....tp ewan duk pikir other "considerationssss".....ni wat pening kepala n raser nk migrain (kene makan uphamol lagi!!)...

semua bende yg perlu dah "diuruskn" oleh "sumbody"....so kene tggu ewan say YES je (bukan "I DO" cam nk kawin yek!!)....oh God, please help me...

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tetibe jer ewan raser nk update pasal movies yg ewan dah tgok baru nie..yg paling terbaru nie ader 2 movie.... dragon ball n race to the witch mountain..

actually, utk dragon ball nie, ewan gi ngan Syed n hafiz..... hafiz dpt tiket premium pd 12 march from one of his fren utk 3 org..so kami ber3 gi la tgok.....premium class ni mmg best...kerusi yg empuk view yg sgt best!!!! wakakaka


ok,utk citer dragon ball....... mgikut pade tajuk nye "evolution", so citer ader byk evolution dr jalan cerite Akira Torimaya yg dlm komik n kartun..tp still lagi pade kiter yg ikut komik n kartun dragon ball (ingt tak pagi Ahad kol 930am....huhuhu), kiter still leh pham ngan baguz jalan citer ni.....

cume, muke Master Kame (Master Rosyi....Jet li) tu agak cam mude sgt je....kan master Rosyhi tua berjanggut n mcm PENYU.....huhuhu..then Gooku lak, overall yg mmg best gak lakonan die...
yg lain, bagi ewan ok je.....

actually, ewan expect lebih byk action spnjang movie tu...yer la, kiter kn tgok Dragon ball, so sure la action sane sini kn...tp malang nye, dlm dragon ball Evolution nie, action agak kurang just mgkin bagi sequal Dragon Ball nnti baru byk kot.... ewan rase utk movie pertama nie, diorang just nk kiter paham ape yg berlaku n kenal ngan watak2 tu (even semua org dah tau kn??....ngok tul..huhu)....

so tggu la the Sequal nye...huhuhu.... ewan bagi 3 stars!!!!


alrite, utk citer Race to the witch mountain (RTTWM), ewan baru jer tngok ngan smlm (14 mac) kat Cinelaisure ngan my frenz coz kitorang gi cuci mati n cuci wallet kat IKEA...then tgok ader mase skit lagi, then trus larik ke Cinelaisure ( ewan mmg larik coz time tu ujan lebat..hehe) utk tgok movie...muahahaha..

RTTWM nie, citer pasal UFO terhempas kat area desert kat Vegas n UFO tu bwk 2 "alien" utk bwk balik hasil "research" diorang ke planet diorang.....tp UFO tu terhempas coz kene tembak ngan sekor "asassin" ala-ala Predator yg ade complete weapon n shield....huhuhu

so "race" dlm RTTWM nie berlaku biler UFO yg terhempas tu dah di kuaratin oleh Team dr US federal Gov kat 1 secret base kat area pergunungan = WITCH MOUNTAIN..... so 2 alien tu ngan bantuan "the rock" n the predator yg nk bunuh alien tu masing2 berkejar-kejaran (bukan main kejar-kejar budak tadika k....) ke witch mountain tu.......selebih nye, korang tgok sndiri eh!!!!!

yg best nye RTTWM nie, citer nie ader smua unsur (bukan unsur SX ye...opss) i mean, movie nie ader humour, action, romance skit and sedih skit....smua complete la....huhuhu
tu yg wat suke movie nie....wakakakaka....

so ewan bagi 4 stars utk RTTWM nie...... UTK KORANG YG LOM TGOK LAGI, EWAN SARAN KORANG CEPAT2 GI TGOK K!!..... BEST!!

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ewan nk wish Happi besday to Henkie Isahwan... ari nie (9 march) ade lah besday eki yg ke 20......i wish ur success and happiness in ur life... tak tau nk bagi hadiah pe... huhuhu
tp yg penting, ewan nk nasihatkan pade eki n nasihatkan pade diri ewan gak......try the best to score in ur study..this is ur final year kn??

ingat, sukses tak akan dtg tergolek2....sukses nie, kiter kene bayar ngan hard work dan pergorbanan.....( eki tadah je telinge eh....dgr ewan lecture..wakakaka..just kidding)

owh yer, tetibe ewan tringat mase umo ewan 20 dulu...masih lagi tak stabil n byk je wat silly mistakes and mcm2 bende lagi...malu gak la nk citer....
ader je tak kene....tp kiter belajar dr kesilapan diri and kiter timba as much as we can the precious experience...so that, we can see our life clearly.....

tp tak semua org yg umo 20 ni jadi mcm ewan time umo 20 dulu....masing2 ader life yg different kn?? so ape yg ewan tulis nie jer refer pade diri ewan sndiri coz saje2 nk share ngan korang
my past experience....wakakakaka...

lastly, be urself...tak kisah la cam ne skali pon..tak kisah la ape yg terjadi skali pon, jadi diri sndiri.... ewan sedar, ewan penah wat silap coz penah pakse sesorang tu berubah ikut kehendak ewan....
coz ewan trlupe yg tidak ader org boleh ubah diri kiter, kecuali diri kiter sndri!!!!!

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p/s- vidoe tak dpt nk display lor..coz code die takde...sedih tul.... tp nie ade link die....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9QMPekNYYNA

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tak der yg lebih mgembirakan n wat ewan bahgia selain drp mendengar yg Si die telah slamat smpai.... ati ewan sgt lega n just god knows wht was it feel... i really thanks god regarding this particular matter....

ewan happy gak coz kwn ewan ckp si die sgt happy n enjoy kat sane... as i told before, i will be so n so happy if only die smile, laugh n happy....even i m suffering inside...but its ok, ni la org kate dugaan n ujian yg Tuhan wat utk ewan....

actually, rite now is the important moment which ewan sgt n sgt perlukan die to be at my side...
ewan pon tak tau nape byk sgt dugaan utk ewan.... pas 1, then muncul lagi 1...

moment yg sangat horor n disaster dlm idup ewan.... Di mane kah die ketika ewan sgt perlukan
die skrng??? mane??...................

tetibe ewan teringat 1 pepatah org :
"hidup nie ibarat RODA... kejap kite kat atas then kejap lagi kite kat bawah.. tp yg pastinya, ape yg brade di bawah, akan turut brade kat atas sooner or later n sebaliknya...."

so skrng nie, ewan brade kat part bawah dlam kitaran roda nie.... ape yg penting, kuatkan semangt, kuatkan hati, kuatkan minda n trus pacu roda idup ewan nie...even sangat SAKIT n sangat PERIT n sangat SEKSA, itu lah hakikat kehidupan...



i wish, i cud smile n laugh like the old days before.....i miss all the good n bad things that happend in my past time....

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